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Book 8 References
Hard as it was for Sónya, she watched her friend and did not let her out of her sight. The day before the count was to return, Sónya noticed that Natásha sat by the drawing room window all the morning as if expecting something and that she made a sign to an officer who drove past, whom Sónya took to be Anatole. Sónya began watching her friend still more attentively and noticed that at dinner and all that evening Natásha was in a strange and unnatural state. She answered questions at random, began sentences she did not finish, and laughed at everything.
After tea Sónya noticed a housemaid at Natásha’s door timidly waiting to let her pass. She let the girl go in, and then listening at the door learned that another letter had been delivered. Then suddenly it became clear to Sónya that Natásha had some dreadful plan for that evening. Sónya knocked at her door. Natásha did not let her in.
She will run away with him! thought Sónya. She is capable of anything. There was something particularly pathetic and resolute in her face today. She cried as she said good-by to Uncle, Sónya remembered. Yes, that’s it, she means to elope with him, but what am I to do? thought she, recalling all the signs that clearly indicated that Natásha had some terrible intention. The count is away. What am I to do? Write to Kurágin demanding an explanation? But what is there to oblige him to reply? Write to Pierre, as Prince Andrew asked me to in case of some misfortune?... But perhaps she really has already refused Bolkónski—she sent a letter to Princess Mary yesterday. And Uncle is away.... To tell Márya Dmítrievna who had such faith in Natásha seemed to Sónya terrible. Well, anyway, thought Sónya as she stood in the dark passage, now or never I must prove that I remember the family’s goodness to me and that I love Nicholas. Yes! If I don’t sleep for three nights I’ll not leave this passage and will hold her back by force and will and not let the family be disgraced, thought she.
Sonya Alone
Featured Characters: SONYA
[SONYA]
Hard as it is
In the coming days
I watch my
friend
In her strange unnatural state
Don’t let her out of my sight
She trails off
Stares at nothing
Laughs at
random
And the letters come
She waits by the window
And I listen at the door
Until one day
I see by the sad look on her face
There is a dreadful plan in her heart
[SONYA]
I know you are capable of anything
I know
you so well my friend
I know you might just run away
What am I to
do?
Who do I ask for help?
Is it all on me?
Is it all on me?
[SONYA]
I will stand in the dark for you
I will hold you
back by force
I will stand here right outside your door
I won’t see
you disgraced
I will protect your name and your heart
Because I miss my friend
[SONYA]
I know you’ve forgotten me
I know you so
well my friend
I know you might just throw yourself over
But I won’t
let you
I won’t let you
It’s all on me
[SONYA]
And I remember this family
I remember their
kindness
And if I never sleep again
[SONYA]
I will stand in the dark for you
I will hold you
back by force
I will stand here right outside your door
I won’t see
you disgraced
I will protect your name and your heart
Because I miss my friend
Because I miss my friend
Because I
miss you, my friend